Heavenly Father, as I write this blog today may You please pour Your heart through me and onto the page. Please forgive me for my anger and my disappointment. Please help me to understand that even though I may not know why the trials and tribulations are in my life at a particular time and season, thank you that they are only there for me to ultimately grow closer to You. Thank you for my husband and his wisdom and knowledge of You and of his unique way of getting me to understand my own need for forgiveness at a time I don't see it myself. Thank You for being the Almighty God who puts Your arms around me when I need a hug. I love You Lord. ~Amen!
Today has been quite a struggle for me. I know the Lord has asked me to write a daily blog and to share it with anyone who would read it and may be able to be uplifted and encouraged by it. Today is one of those days that no matter how many topics roll through my mind, I am having a tough time deciding on one to share with you.
I have poured my heart out to God on several occasions already today and have been in His Word on an almost constant basis since I awoke this morning. However, God's peace and comfort has not come until just recently when I spoke with my husband and explained the trial of today and things that happened in the car on the way to the school this morning to drop off my son. See, I lost my mind for a few moments and yelled "God, I need heat!!" Ok, a little more clarification is in order.
This morning the frost was heavy on the car and in my desire to see the road before me, I scraped the frost as best I could. All the while, letting the car run and warm up while my precious children sat in the car waiting for their mommy to get in and go. Well, as I scraped the windows, I realized that my progress was not exactly progress due to the fact nothing was coming off of the windows. My ice scraper was not being cooperative with my moving it across the windows back and forth, back and forth. So, I proceed to move it back and forth while applying all the strength I could muster and made some progress towards clearing an area to view the road through. Well, I then get into the car all ready to go to the school when it becomes brutally apparent that the heater is not working! Therefore, the warming up of the car I thought I was doing while scrapping the windows, is not making progress either! ARRGGHH!
Well, I do see two spots about the size of two quarters clearing at the bottom of the windshield. Mind you, this is not a safe way to pull out onto the road and is highly NOT recommended...
I proceed out of the driveway onto the street. Ok - so far so good and then the sun decides to hit the windshield! OOOPS - can't see anything but I know for a fact there is a stop sign there, so, I stop. Ok, now the thought occurs to me to roll down the front windows so I can see clearly! Great thought, ingenius I thought at the moment - right? So, now do I not only have no heat, I have 23 degree weather and the wind rolling into the car through both front windows. Yep, I'm a genius! Well, I could see now - ok, if you are laughing - I forgive you, I expect a shared story in return for my own laughter though! Oh, excuse me, back to the story...
At this point I have made my way onto the main street and am headed away from the sun so, I can see beautifully through my little circles at the bottom of the windshield. I proceed to the school and yes, I roll those windows back up! I get to the street for the school and I have to turn, well as I am sure you can guess, yep, there is the sun again. Ok, so, now I have no heat, no way to see and yes, I am proceeding forward. Now is when I panic. I can not see children, I can not see vehicles. Well, Praise the Lord he provided a building at that precise moment to block the sun and yes, I could see again through the little circles at the bottom of the windshield. One thing I left out is that I have started yelling "God I need heat" and then as I proceed forward I am yelling louder (like God is deaf) "God I need heat NOW!!"
Well, needless to say, I made it to the school safely and my son made it in to the school safely and my daughter and I made it home safely. Now, I will never leave my driveway in that car again as long as their is frost. At least not until my husband fixes it that is!
Yes, I realize the dangers involved. If I hadn't I wouldn't have been yelling at God. Well, afterwards I am trying to go through my devotions and my quiet time with the Lord and I can not seem to find peace or comfort in the Word. It wasn't until I spoke with my husband and told him the story that he pointed out the obvious, I needed forgiveness for yelling at God. Who am I to yell at God? Whoa!! Thank you my love!
My husband is so humble and modest. He will email me as soon as he reads this and remind me that he is just a sinful mortal man and not the man I write about. However, he definitely is the man I write about, he's just too humble and modest to see it. And ya know what? I love him for that. If he was all pious and prideful, it would not be the same, now would it?
I have no deep insight to give today, just a story about my human nature and how it got the best of me this morning. And the story doesn't end there, it ends with a lesson that we can all take with us, that even in our human nature, God loves us and He still bestows His grace and mercy on us when we ask Him to forgive us for stumbling and falling short of His glory.
Verses for today:
2 Chronicles 7:14if my people, who are called by my name, will
humble themselves and pray and seek my face and turn from their wicked ways, then will I hear from heaven and will forgive their sin and will heal their land.
2 Chronicles 12:7When the LORD saw that they
humbled
themselves, this word of the LORD came to Shemaiah: "Since they have
humbled
themselves, I will not destroy them but will soon give them deliverance.
James 4:10Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up.
1 Peter 5:5Young men, in the same way be submissive to those who are older. All of you, clothe
yourselves with humility toward one another, because, "God opposes the proud but gives grace to the
humble."
Psalm 130:4But with you there is
forgiveness; therefore you are feared
Ephesians 1:7In him we have redemption through his blood, the
forgiveness of sins, in accordance with the riches of God's grace
Hebrews 9:22In fact, the law requires that nearly everything be cleansed with blood, and without the shedding of blood there is no
forgiveness.
Thought for today:
Let God's Word explore your inmost being.
Song for today:
"You are My Hope"
By Skillet
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Z3sYaLsRdkE
Don't be intimidated by the group, they have amazing message in this song. It is a beautiful and very relevant song for today.